So today was a day from hell. In law, you win some you lose some. That's a concept you have to digest early on. Normally, in my area of practice, you don't ever win it all and you don't ever lose it all, it's a little mix of both. But today was a lose lose day. And it was a lose lose day for a client of ours which I really feel for, so that makes it hard. Especially when justice was anything but just. It's hard to carry that weight home on your shoulders after a day like today. It's days like today that make me want an escape. It makes me want a complete change. A person can only carry but so much stress with them from day to day until it starts to break them down. It seems like after one crisis is over, another one is right behind it- ready to stir up a wind storm of problems. I'm getting to a point where I can't take it anymore. It's not healthy for my body or my mind.

That being said, I've begun looking into new options. The three biggest standouts, are mediation, surgical technology, and pharmacy technology. They are all courses I could complete within a year, and they are all careers that would bring me a bit more income and a lot less stress. With a baby on the way though, I'll need to put those desires on hold at least until next year. But that would give me enough time to train a replacement for myself. It will also give us enough time to figure ourselves out, financially- to see how we could make it all work. We shall see.

Speaking of baby, our precious miracle is 7 weeks 2 days old today. We were able to see the baby on ultrasound last night. Had a slow, strong heart beat, and the beginnings of what looked like arm and leg nubs. It's amazing how fast it has grown in the last week and a half. The last time we looked, we couldn't even see the baby. My body is definitely aware of its presence. The morning sickness I lacked with Emery caught up to me with this one. And I am exhausted all the time, and normally passed out by 8:30 every night. No physical changes yet. The baby is still the size of a blueberry (or smaller), so my body hasn't had to make any major changes... but all that will change in the next months to come.

Today I found out that my best friend had a baby last night. I didn't even know she was pregnant. It makes me ashamed to call myself her best friend. Then again, even her own parents didn't know she was pregnant- and she lives with them. He is a gorgeous baby and I'm proud to be his Auntie, I just wish I could have been there more for his mommy the last 9 months.

I don't know. Maybe I just need a vacation. Time to get away from it all and relax for a few weeks. I won't have much time to do that soon, so maybe we should take advantage of it while we can.

Baby Pool Game

I started one of those "baby pool" games. One of Jon's friend's had a dream and predicted not only the gender, but the day and the exact time the baby would be born. So, I thought it would be fun to involve everyone else's "predictions" too to see who comes the closest. I'll have to think of some kind of prize for the winner!

Another beginning

So, this will make the 4th blog I've ever had. I started out at Dead Journal, moved on to Greatest Journal, then made my home at Myspace for the last few years. Now that Myspace is pretty much Deadspace, and no friends or anyone I even know even visits Myspace anymore, I needed a new place to call "home".

A little introduction is in order. My name is Katie, and I'm an alcoholic. Hah! Just kidding!! I'm 25, married, and a proud momma. I have a little boy, Emery, who will be 2 this year. I'm also baking his baby brother/sister at the moment, who is due to meet us in November. My husband, Jon, is 27 and works as a civilian contractor to the Army. We met each other 7 years ago when he was in the Navy. We got married on 10/15/05 and have been happily married since. We're pretty opposite on almost everything. The night we met, I was decked out in Hot Topic gear, and he... well, he was a poster child for American Eagle. Needless to say, we work through our differences and love each other for them. We keep each other balanced, he's the yin to my yang :) He likes to play video games and guitar, as do I except for the guitar... which I will get to later.

I'm a paralegal by day. I handle lots of family law matters, mainly divorces and custody matters. I've thought about law school, but I think it would interfere with my having a family life. My main joy in life is being with the ones I love and being a wife and mother.

I have very outspoken opinions on issues of politics, religion, and so forth. I'm conservative, and not ashamed of it. I'm Christian, and not ashamed of that either. I'm VERY pro-life. Though I'm set in my views, I'm tolerant to the views of others... I will just never ever ever ever agree with a pro-choicer.

I love music, art, writing, reading, and crafts. I've always been involved with music. I play all saxes, and piano. I've dabbled with guitar but have never had any formal teaching. Jon taught guitar and I used to teach piano, but we have never found a happy medium to have enough patience with each other for lessons to work between us. I also have a soft spot for animals. Growing up, I always wanted to be a veterinarian but that math and science thing kind of bit me in the butt. We have two dogs (pomeranians- Gir & Ruxpin), a cat (Gaz), a scarlet macaw who Jon hates (Skittles aka "Blyurd"), and a fish tank containing three very territorial and mean fish who kill everything and everybody else.

I have an awe for science, but I'm a woman of faith. I definitely believe in intelligent design... life couldn't exist without it. I am amazed by the universe and the many mysteries it contains. I believe in the paranormal, I mean you can't be Christian and worship the "Holy Spirit" without a belief in the paranormal. Jesus himself was supernatural, in oh so many ways. The reproductive process is also an interest of mine. Everything from ovulation to actual birth is incredible.... researching it just makes me want to praise God for his miracles... because every baby truly is. I've assisted in 3 births, and I went through natural child birth with Emery. I didn't even have an IV for fluid. My mother's a midwife, so I guess you could say that's what sparked my curiosity on the subject (at a pretty young age, I should add). She's definitely the best mom to have around when you're pregnant, that's for sure!

Anyways, that's just a rough start about yours truly. I have a love for life. Hopefully this blog will explore that. I can't promise that every blog will be this tasteful. I have my days, and my own raunch factor. Being pregnant will also promise some hormonal blogs from time to time. So... that's it in a nutshell. Here's a thanks in advance to anyone who chooses to read further.